Precious Moments

As an artist i lament the possibilities in life. I can have whatever it is I want. I can do what is possible and anything in life is possible. I look at the world in a pre-creative state of mind. Always looking for inspiration from people and still objects. I always look for the texture and color of life. I want to copy the beauty and express it in my work. I am a very basic artist in the sense that I do not complicate things. I am not a picasso or braque. I am not a dali or michaelangelo. I am a very normal person with average skils. I love what i am capable of doing and I am not trying to sell or pawn myself as a master. Yet I am a master at creating what I love because it is mine. I create MY masterpieces for my enjoyment. I am very passionate about what my soul expresses. If some else is passionate about my work then that is an extra I can enjoy.

I am not fooled into believing I am going to compete for the attention that the very gifted and talented artists have. I am not trying to capture that audience. I do not even want an audience. I would love to inspire others to think the way I do and have a passion for what they love to do and to share it with others. Share it in a very humble way and pay attention to whom enjoys it. Enjoy your work with them and talk with your audience be it one or two persons.

I reflect on where I have traveled in my life, physically and spiritually. It has been a journey. Yet I have wasted precious time and resources. I have pissed away so to speak opportunities that I can not return to myself. I myself learned this through those experiences. We live in a very comfortable world. We have before us a spoiled culture. If we fail we have a safety net. Lately we have been seeing that the world is very delicate and everything we are so used to having can be taken away in an instant. In a global light we have seen that nature, as we call it can have no mercy on us. Our earth reminds us that we are very small and to appreciate a reprieve we recieve daily where their is calm. To enjoy everything we experience daily. To love everyone and give of each other. I do not care nor does it matter what you believe, if you are reading this then you have the luxury of internet access and the time to find this blog. You have the calmness in your life where you have time. Time to reflect on what you have and want. Time to appreciate and create opportunities to enjoy those gifts you are NOW able to enjoy. One day youll be detached from these opportunities and will struggle just to survive. Some life a lifetime of calmness. Some live a lifetime of chaos. Some live a lifetime of silence never knowing.

If there is a point to my madness it is to do not take your days and moments for granted. You only have one moment at a time. You are only guaranteed the moment you are in never the next.

I feel Better NOW!

I am in a rut. I have not been in a rutfor a long time. I am happy. I am thankful for my life, surroundings, accomplishments, situation, my gifts. I am appreciative of all that I am and have. Sometimes we get comfortable and stop moving forward. At times we feel that security blanket around us and lose sight of our ultimate goal. At least I know my ultimate goal in life is to inspire. It always has been. The only way I can inspire the way I am called to is on a large scale. The only way I can handle inspiring on a larger scale is to be able to be an inspiration to one person. The ONLY way to be able to be an inspiration to one person is to love. Love myself and therefore loving others is natural. I even have to love the people that do not want to be loved. I also have to remember to love the people that are fake and mysterious. I do have to remember to love people all around me even the people that do not love me.

That is the problem I face today. I am in a rut. I am letting fake people get to me. I am not wanting to or in the mood to love the people that do not love me. I am not a people pleaser but I am a person that does not like the drama of certain situations and tend to shy away from it. Shy away is a weak word to describe what I do. I run like a madman away from it. Drama around me is toxic. People who lie to my face is hard to swallow. I guess it is Karma. I lied to people I loved once a time ago and it hurt them. I am around some toxic relationships daily I cannot avoid. I am facing a dilemma that I cannot avoid. I have allowed this situation to bother me, infect my happiness, take charge of my peace. I have to regain composure and march forward attacking the negativity. I know it is easier said than done but I know It can be done. My first step is to be happy...for which I am already. The second is to empower my life with lovely happy encouraging activities. PAINTING!. I have not been painting. I have not been interacting with Art as a daily supplement. As artists if we are away from our passion it becomes a scenario of being in the middle of the mojave desert and no water. We will dehydrate. We will choke from hunger. We will cease to function.

The base of this post is to remember who you are at all times. Remember you love for life. Love your life and all around you. Not everyone is going to be like you. Not everyone is going to be positive on the inside and out. They will fake and lie to put on a show. The truth always shows to us. We are empathetic people who feel their pain. It is toxic for us to be around them and allow them in our special place. Our soul is for inspiration not for someone to suck our life out. It is not for them to drain us of our happiness and joy. It is ofr them to see us as an example. But they will not see it that way. hang on. Dont complain about them. Do not give them any control over you. They control with their influence of shit. They will infect you with their lies and deception of loyalty and turn on you when you look them in the eyes. Put on the shield of love.

I Create Inside

How do we deal with life and balance our attempt at creating art every day. How do we balance the chore of living our lives the way our world demands it. Should we be appreciative of the opportunity we have living in our respective places where if we have the freedom to express we should by all means find the time. Rather than complain that we have no time because we are too busy with work and responsibilities. What about the places in the world where people do not have the luxury of having access to being creative. Do not have the freedom to be able to create. Their lives are hinged on finding food and shelter or keeping safe from gunfire. Trying to find ways to avoid disease and keep their families safe. We are blessed to have our freedom if we have it. We are truly selfish if we are to think we are so in a bad place when we are capable of so much more. We are capable of creating our world. There are people that create a happy place in the most horrid conditions. We who have all that we can have are still unhappy. IS it a state of mind or is it a situation that we have a need or cannot avoid unhappiness? Are we in a place where unhappiness is justified? Can we resolve the issues that we have allowed in our lives to be unhappy? Other than death, tragedy and loss, we have all the tools to be happy. All the resources to be happy. We can grieve. Yes we can be sad for a season. When we clear our minds it is time to focus on our happiness. We touch so many lives when we share our joy to others. WE create an environment of joy. People watch us and see and feel our pain and joy. We are all connected in some way. Even the most destitute of a human being affects another. A homeless person has family and loved ones. When they disappeared they left behind worry and anxiety. They leave an empty space for some lives wondering where their loved one has gone.

I try to open eyes with these tid bits of my thoughts. Take it for what it is. We are all creators of joy. We are all loving breathing souls connecting everyday in our own unique way. As artists we need to connect through our creative avenues. We need to relate to others and connect through our masterpieces. They are all masterpieces we share with everyone. Not sharing our works is selfish. Not sharing our joy is selfish. There is no such thing as “I smile inside”. “I create for myself”. I know we all have privacy issues and shyness as artists but if we can touch one life and reach someone we are good. We are justified.

These are just my thoughts. These are not things that are going to be broadcasted over the airwaves to convince others that this is the way to think. It is my thought. My opinion. I share my thoughts in a conversation with you through this forum that you the reader has chosen to follow or read. I have not solicited my voice to you. I have the privilege of having you as an audience and am humbled that someone takes the time to see what I feel. It might resonate it might cause a bit of a hurtful thought, it might make you angry. In essence we are all supportive of each other in this journey and we should somehow try to give of each other to teach each other something from our experiences. Is there a point to this entry? Yes.

Lonely Artist

Lets let it out now. I am sick and tired of so many negative people around me. Why are people so selfish thinking of themselves and how they are so sad and upset about something that they want to include everyone in the world to their misery. It really pisses me off to the point where I just want to leave the busy life and be alone. Painting until my last days. Creating my art for myself. A large warehouse where I can hang everything and just stare at it everyday relishing in my masterpieces. Yes they are my pieces of work. They are my creations my babies. I gave my works birth. I gave them a soul. All art works have a soul. Some have empty souls. Some have passionate souls. Some have angry souls. Some have happy joyous souls. We as artists give our pieces of works life. We give them life. Our works inspire others in different ways. Our works give other people life. So I guess the answer to my little paragraph of bitching and moaning and self pitty of being around challenging people is that they all need people like us to inspire them. To love them. TO hug them with our art. To show them affection. The kind of love that humans have to show each other for us to survive. 6 billion or more people in this world and we are cramped with negativity. Dont believe me? Look at the news. But do not let that leave you in depression and despair. There is a lot of good out there. In all this death destruction perverse nature our world is spiralling into we can see hope. Hope in humans. We can see people gasping for love and joy. People looking for change. The kind of change that brings love and hope. Not the Obama change or the Humanistic change. A deep change in our belief system. A spiritual new beginning people are yearning for. We are all looking for a deeper happiness. We need to allow the joy we were born with to permeate through our soul. We need to expose that love from our birthright. Yes it is a birthright that society has robbed us of. Society wants us to be robots. Believing that the technology of today is replacing our joy. But technology is just like a drug desensitizing our emotions. Technology is a way if distracting us from what our soul is trying to feel. A deeper connection to each other. We need to connect with each other on a deeper level. Talk face to face not text. Call or visit to say I Love You. Not a text or email. travel to visit that loved one. Take the future event of regret out of the possible equation and feel the joy from contact. We are headed in the wrong direction. Turn this technology into an enhancement to our lives and not a detriment. I am using technology to reach some of you knuckleheads that look into this little screen for your information on life. Intead of talking to the elders about love and life you "google" it. You might find a great opinion. Have you ever talked to a person with life experience and have tea or coffee sitting talking to mom or uncle and auntie about life? Or a good friend? No. You would rather chat or text randomly to strangers. Go on a forum. Game until the wee hours of the morning numbing yourself from the world while your little children turn into adults. And then they wonder why they are all screweed up? Where were you? Distracted. Years ago it was the alchohol or drug. Now it is technology interrupting our lives. I might be overreacting. I might have it wrong, I know. Think the way you want. I closed my facebook. I deleted 12 of my 14 email accounts. LOL I have streamlined my life on the grid. My focus is on me and my loved ones. My loved ones are focused on themselves. I still love them. They are distracted like you. But I have hope that the values I have beat into them all these years and the loving I kissed them and hugged them with will prevail. I will never give up on you. I will never go away to the solace of my fantasy life of being a hermit artist. I will always be here for you because I love you. Wake up people! If you think I offended you then good! I got through.