If you are reading this you either know me, have met me through my art somehow, work related, or are a loved one of mine. Either way you find it in you to keep track of what I am writing. Some of you have connected with my rants in some way. Others.....I do not know the purpose for you to visit my blog. If you are interested in my art thank you for your support. If you know me personally you will know the internal struggles I go through regarding my creative side. As will all artists of any genre we all have something that inspires us. Whether it be a person or thing or situation. A feeling we have sets us off into a frenzy and we create the most amazing things. I have realized I have a following. What a responsibility. I guess you can know you have a following when people know you by your art and not any personal relationship you have with them. It is a compliment when I have heard my name come out of peoples mouths ddescribing my work and I do not know who they are right in front of my face. Very humbling because I do not have that high regard for my work. I am just an average guy who has a pasion for my work. I have a pasion for people and their creativity. I love talking to epople in general and helping. I love beiong a part of helping people get out of their bad way and think and live positive. I know sounds really corny but that is what life is about for me. I want to create full time and enjoy the last of my days as an artist. I see it. I will accomplish that before I leave this earth. I lived it this past year and have a wonderful memory of it. Lately I have been traveling for my work as a contractor. That is what they call people that are for hire without benefits temporarily for a certain amount of time and at any time they can say thank you good bye. I have not been able to create much since I have been traveling. It is frustrating. I am still happy. I am happy meeting people and visiting the art galleries where I visit. It seems as if I am always meeting people where I visit that are artists in the most random of places and they have totally unrelated jobs. I enjoy ev ery moment and try to remember not to take it for granted and appreciate the experience. I have met so many beautiful souls. People I have had the opportunity to reach out to and help encourage them in some way. It is remarkable the hospitality of strangers. I have experienced wonderful friendships in my life time. Some come and then go. Some have been lifetime friendships. I value all of the friendships I have had over the years and am very thankful because everyone has had a part in my maturation. My life is a journey that gives me lessons to be learned. I used to ask why I was going through all the trouble and what do I teach my children about this journey. What do I say when they ask why are we here? I used to question why. I did not know nor did I have an answer. Do I have an answer now? NO. But I know I have a purpose. I am an artist. My soul tells me to create. The fiber of my being tells me to Love everyone and be generous with myself. It goes deeper than just being nice to everyone. It goes beyond having compassion for my fellow man. It is a process we go through. To appreciate everyone and Love everyone is easier said than done. To appreciate the relations we have. That is humbling. As an artist we take all the experiences and turn them into either inspiration for a masterpiece or imagery. For me I have to be happy with myself to create. I have to be letting something go to create. I cannot create with nothing. I cannot divulge the secrets to my soul and not feel like my Art is the vesel in which I tell the story. We have to have passion when we create or others will see right through it. We cannot be fakes when it comes to it. We have to be genuine with regards to our work. We might be shit in our life but when we express ourselves and let the world in .....be real . our work is what we live for. That is our purpose.

The world we live in can seem very intimidating to the point that we do not want to go outside of our cave. We see all the bad in the news internationally and outside our own door. It does not matter where you are living in any class or status. You can find that negativity around, all you have to do is open your eyes and be aware. People can let their moods and emotional state of being became infectious like a disease. If I step into an elevator and there is a group of people and one person is feeling really hateful and down I can feel it like someone is punching me in the gut. If I am at the gas station and minding my own business and someone is waiting for the pump to open and waiting behind me frustrated because I am taking my sweet ass time...wow I can feel that person wanting to smash into me...lol. I know that one was out of no where. But you get the idea. Family can make you feel like shit as well. People can really destroy the mood in a room at work.....all they have to do is bring their issues from home to work and spread their ugliness to everyone by giving short answers and ignoring everyone. Crossing the street ...the light is green....car making a right turn blows the horn because you are taking your time walking across and you have the light....wow. Why are people in a hurry? Why cant we all just get along? LOL. Famous line. Really though. We can actually find ourselves become really depressed because we know that we cannot seem to win out there. Going to work and your boss doesn't have a life so he picks on you because you are always happy and he isn't, so he gives you the shitty hours and talks down to you. Yet you still keep your wit about yourself and arrive happy not letting this person get to you. Still...you can go home and wammo. it gets to you finally and then your home life changes. And now your family suffers because you decided to let some person who doesn't even care about you get under your skin. We need to choose to be happy. We need to decide to stay positive. Our lives are not dependant on a strangers reaction to us. We need to stay the course and stay focused. We need to be an inspiration to people around us. We need to remember to create our art work to give people life. Show the color and imagination we have inside us to create joy in peoples lives. We have this gift of creativity and we need to create and inspire. I sometimes find myself letting others attitudes beliefs and moods sometimes dictate my feelings for the day and then i lose out on a rich wonderful day that could and might be my last. Why waste the time. Take advantage of this beautiful life we have. We might have it only but fir a day more.  I often see other people make the mistake of wasting precious moments with not spending time with their children or parents. Wives and husbands going UNloved and marriages falling apart because of no communication. All of this can be resolved with one word or action or feeling. LOVE. But we make excuses. LOVE. Show our love anyway you can think of. Through our art. Through our attention. Speaking and saying hello to a stranger might make a difference in their life changing their perception of the unfriendly world. Give someone hope. Give a smile. Help someone. Talk to a friend in need. Love a family member reaching out. Buy a co worker a taco. Laugh at someones joke.
I know I am rambling. Sometimes It does not come out all pretty. But I say what I feel as I feel it. I am not a rehearsed soul. I give it the way I feel it. it gets me in trouble sometimes with people that do not like to hear the truth. I have never been politically correct. I used to be a hypocrite but at least now I know who I am and try to be straight forward...if I have not been to someone reading this then look in the mirror and ask yourself why? Buy the way..are you mr/mrs perfect? do you treat others as you would want to be treated? so before you comment negatively....take inventory and check yourself.
I love all of you and hope this finds you and helps you. I pray that you find that switch and turn that negative stuff off. if not. maybe ill make sense to you next time. Take care my creative friend and keep creating.

Give me a Break!

Is pain a good inpiration? I guess the experiences we have throughout our life time can inspire us to create works that have substance whether or not the experiences are positive or negative experiences. We can grow up with turmoil in our lives and somehow that creative process cleanses us and aids in releasing those internal feelings that torture us. I know after so many years of anxiety and internalizing the outside that I cannot control in my life I came to a place of happiness yet there was a strong presence of the residue left over. When I created in that mindset I allowed myself to express myself through imagery that depicted my inner concerns. There were so many emotions that I did not know existed in my mind. My soul was cluttered with all the pain. I immediately created with what I saw and felt that would describe those deep rooted hidden feelings. I sometimes would scare family and friends with my imagery but it did not matter. I created none the less. I partook in group shows and had one man shows with my work and did not care if there was criticism. I let go. I have let go. Now a new chatper has begun in my life. Where my work takes me I am looking forward to the surprises. I have no plans other than to express honestly. Give me a break!

By Any Stretch Of The Imagination!

As I sit here in my seat some thousands of feet in the air waiting to get to my work location for the week I am looking out my window realizing what an amazing creation we are. What an amazing creation we are a part of. We live in a wonderful planet. Able to sustain the life it holds. Yet we have so much that destroys it. Do we really appreciate what we are and what we have? We hold the key to most things in this world. We are so capable to offer ourselves the happiness and enjoyment that we deserve. Yet we ruin it by negatively affecting the lives of people around us. We destroy so much. Not only in the physical world but in the metaphysical. I believe that when we are in our hearts hateful of our fellow man and looking to hurt and put others on the defense we tear down the happiness around us. How can we expect to have a peaceful world when we cause so much hurt among others. I have spent my life lying to myself thinking I was OK as long as I l kept to myself...Ignored the people I chose to stay away from even though they were reaching out. I held that regret for a long time. Now I take it as a lesson to remember never to allow myself to feel that way again. I still struggle with the residue of the asshole I was. Now I love everyone. Yes everyone. I have taken solace in the peace I receive when I forgive. It is very liberating. I Feel that was the Achilles heel of my pain all these years and caused all the health problems I had. Funny how we create our own stress and let ourselves believe it was caused by external forces beyond our control. LOL> what a lie the little man and voice on my shoulder tells me. I stop believing the voices in my head. Now those voices are there to entertain me and remind me to stay focused in life. hold the people you love dear and close. we are all so fragile that we crush the hearts of our children with our selfishness. they are so innocent they just want to love and be loved. they look for our support for those of us who are parents or even if you aren't you have some contact with a family member who looks up to you. They look for that comfort in a loving supportive loved one and then they get shit on! LOL. wow. I have those memories. and instead of learning from them and improving my little world around me to inspire people around me I felt everyone around me will pay. wow. sad. sad little man i was. we are just but a spec of little grain of sand in the desert. can you imagine. a single grain of sand in the desert. yet we hold so much power. the ratio of people who know all of the above to those who are ignorant to this enlightenment is so lopsided. a grain of sand in the desert in comparison. i might ramble. but you know i have struck a nerve one way or another. either i made you cry or i pissed you off because you are too ignorant to come to a realization that we are responsible for our misery MOST of the time. And even if my wonderful friends in New Zealand are suffering the earths itch. I know there is a catastrophic event happening right now along with all of the other events on this beautiful earth.....we still hold the choice to appreciate our life if we have it...and I am sure for those that have passes they are in a much more peaceful and wonderful place. so it is a win win situation. lets of course assume and hope that ALL of us realize the importance of loving each other while we are here and taking care of one another. being responsible and accountable for one another. i am sure we all have our individual beliefs and we can sit here and argue the point until our ears bleed and our jaws lock for all the bullshit we hear and speak. we argue and destroy each others faith because we chastise one another with ritualistic beliefs and practices. we spew hate at each other because we do not believe in each others God. And how hypocritical that statement is.... God is Love. And yet we will blow each other up. Shoot each other, expel banish and ignore each other all in the name of our Lord. Is this right. Here I go again. Hate mail on its way. Hey! Don't read it. Get off my page and continue to lie in the mirror. I will continue to love you. I will continue to forgive and hug you. I will continue to hold you in my thoughts and prayers. Yes I will. You asshole! I love you! lol. Gotta have a sense of humor. we HAVE to laugh at ourselves because we are a joke. look at our society today. look at what we do in our spare time. look at what we let our children partake in. look at the public and see the negative. is there room for more? yet if i reach out and hug my fellow man and brother and sister in humanity...something is wrong. We are artists. We are the creators of our lives. we are all able to create what we want. I am creating a beautiful masterpiece of happiness for the rest of my life. By Any Stretch Of My Imagination I will create such a masterpiece that only the greats would appreciate the intricacies of detail in my love for you. I will use so much color in my piece and the texture will be amazing! My canvas will be my life and my imagery will be soothing to the eye and you will feel my energy in every corner of my being. My passion will shine!