Remember To Be Happy.

There are so many reasons we stop being happy. There are so many excuses we reason with to justify the actions of our selfishness. We look past the innocent looks of our children. We ignore the wisdom of our elders who have gone through all we are experiencing. We fall into the beliefs that our twisted society has brainwashed us with. We continue in self pitty. I for one have done all of the above. As of recent I almost fell into this lie again. I always am reminded through the love of my children and a few loved ones that life is too precious to throw away a single moment in our short time here. We only have a small window of opportunity to enjoy the moment. Sometimes we are given a lifetime of opportunity and we do not realize it until a lifetime has passed. Then and only then we look back and see how special and wonderful we had it. I see that in people i know. I experienced it. I am still young enough...or am i. is my mortality right around the corner? has my health deteriorated so much that i am so close? who knows.... All i know is i have now. I have this moment with my family and friends. i have this moment in time to enjoy life. i have this moment in time to be thankful in all that has been presented to me. indulge in the beauty of my life. take stock of the precious moments that have been given to me. tend to those people that have been put in my path. i know i have a wonderful purpose in this life. i am here to inspire. i am here to make someone smile. i am here to create. i am here to help humanity evolve into a loving society. it is possible. so many negative people have crossed my path. so many detractors.they have not penetrated my being like before. now they empower me to press forward. i am not easily intimidated. are you? do you hold back? do you keep that special unique gift inside that maybe could be shared with someone or someones. lol. do you see it as a threat to expose yourself to others and open up to maybe create for anothers enjoyment. are you holding back the love that has been gifted to you? i guess a lot of people might disagree with me. its OK. i do not always agree with myself hence an internal struggle. but we all have to at least reach out somehow and to figure out how is brave. because to figure out how takes experimentation. experimentation for creations sake sometimes takes sacrifice. sometimes we need to sacrifice to give someone else freedom. in this case we are talking freedom from fear. fear of being happy. comfort in being unhappy and sad. being dependent on the misery that is like a drug in our society. we depend on a substance to ease the pain of our misery and depression. we are addicted to that substance. we look for answers to why we are addicted. we look for the love to distract us from the addiction. then we intimidate because people are afraid of who we are. then we fall deeper because we blame society for our failure to function normally. So we reach out for help. we are now isolated because we have alienated ourselves from the world with all of our problems that we are blaming everyone to be the cause. all we needed to do was be happy to begin with. we could have avoided all of this bullshit. All we had to do was create. all we had to do was help someone. all we had to do was be thankful. love. yes it is that easy. what a waste. i feel like shit just writing this. and yet the great thing about it....i still have a chance. i am here to inspire love help love smile hug kiss scream with joy. i am here for you my brothers and sisters. create love and inspire~!

What Is Your Excuse?

I am sitting here wondering how negativity affects so many people. Why isn't just as easy to feel positive than to feel negative. it seems so easy for a person to fall into depression and feel like shit rather than to just DECIDE to feel awesomely happy. Isn't it funny how our world lies to us telling us we need medication to sooth ourselves. Lies abound by telling us that we need alcohol to serve us a dish of happy times. Why cant we just laugh with each other and get high and heal ourselves with that wonderful euphoric laughter. That sense of joy that comes from within. For artists this is much more amplified. We see the world a little different. we are so emotional and we base everything we do by the emotions we feel. We create with the passion we feel for everything in life. we create what we feel and translate into our works. I am finding out now in my life that i am able to harness that power that has been given to us divinely. Yes. We have been given that gift to create. Not just to create works of art but a life as a work of art. to create anything we want because we choose to. to create joy in our lives because we decide to feel it. under any circumstances. We cannot control what others create for themselves. we cannot control the tragedies that happen all around us. we can control what we feel inside and that is untouchable. i can create joy in my life by always knowing that my joy is a likeness of our creators spirit. we are works of art. we were created in perfection. our bodies are so intricate. our bodies have so much capability that we do not know how to began to use. our spirit and energy have such tremendous strength we are so ignorant. if we only had a users manual. or a cheat sheet. can you imagine having a technology in your hands that is unmatchable to any other and just letting it sit by your side just for looks. well that is what we have. we have amazing abilities and yet we do not use what we have been given to our best. i am just getting a taste of this power and it is amazing. creating my reality. a day at a time. wonderful. i have been excited experimenting with this new idea that God has given me and i had access to it my whole life and just now am finding out. i am happy. i was born happy. why is it i always LET myself fall to the lies. i want to thrive in my artwork. i will let myself be. i will detox myself from all the negativity around me. be aware of it but not let it penetrate my soul. my soul is healing. my soul is powerful. what do you think my loved ones reading this? are we on to something"? or are you going to give me a bunch of excuses why or reasons and ignorant comments telling me otherwise. ill still love you all. go ahead. i challenge you. why cant you be happy? why cant you let the crap go? i would rather LET myself be happy than allow myself fall into depression and sadness.

Love Create Inspire!

Savannah was inspirational. This is a city where students study to become artists and then suddenly realize that all the money they spent on school they were artists all along. I cam across so many characters in this city. People of all walks of life. All with wonderful stories. All inspirational stories. I wish I had more time to speak to each and every one of them. I know in life we cross each others pass for a reason. We are all in this journey together to inspire and encourage one another to be positive. We are given one chance to love. We all have a gift that we use to show that love. All of us have the opportunity to figure it out what that gift is. Some waste it and suffer a life of despair. I was that desperate person once. Always looking for that one thing that was going to bring me happiness. I could never find it. Not in a person, not in a substance, not in any material thing. I decided one day to be happy. It was like turning a switch on. WOW!.... It was there all along. Wonderful power we have. And when we decide to turn that switch on it is contagious. Marvelous things happen. Happiness multiplies. Positive things began to happen. A new path is suddenly carved out for us to lead us to more happy experiences. I watch people differently. I love people. We are all looking for clarity of who we are. Why we are? I see that despair in peoples faces. I only wish I had the power to heal everyone of that feeling. I want to have that power. I do have that power. I notice a smile and an acknowledgement of a strangers greeting or exchange of glances and it brightens up their day.l It is contagious! We can began to heal each other with love. My art is my gift to share. My friendship is my way to express love to my fellow man. Some will accept and some wont. I will not waste my time with the latter. I will surely try but.....MOVE ON! But all will know I tried. All I encounter will know something was behind my love. Gods Love Gods Spirit. We are created in his likeness. With out all the religion bull. We all have the power to change anything at any time. There are so many reasons to be happy. There are so may reasons to be thankful. We can change our reality with that positive flow. What a waste of a day if we do not smile once at someone. What a waste of a life if we do not inspire just one person to be happy. That one person can in turn be compelled to change the world for the better. I shall not bring the opposite effect. It is not worth it. Love Create and Inspire!

Art Is Alive In Durham North Carolina

I recently was sent to Durham North Carolina for work. I dreaded going out there because I assumed it would be boring. How stupid I can be. In this life there are people everywhere that are genuine and loving. There are people in this world always hospitable and arms open to new people and visitors. I spent the first weekend wasted looking for a bar to forget I am away from loved ones. It was like that feeling all over again when I was in the USMC serving in Jacksonville North Carolina. Away from home, do not know anyone….ETC…. Here it is different. I am an artist. I have a very universal interest that people are so open to share. I looked online and saw the Golden Belt. It is an old factory turned into working art studios, galleriy, shops, tattoo parlor, living lofts for creative people. I was fortunate to catch the art walk there. It was wonderful. Just about everyone of the studios were open with artists to meet and greet. I talked mixed and mingled and felt right at home. I felt so comfortable just walking around looking at the art. SO many people were visiting and buying art. It was ALIVE! So many people to mention that I met…The memories will be precious.

I also wanted to listen to some music and visit a rockalternativepunkish bar or cafe. I drove down the street from the golden belt and ran into a couple and asked them where a good place to have a beer. They said go there! The Pinhook! At first glance it was dead. I figured oh well. I will just have a beer and go to my room. The Pinhook is a place where people come late and stay later listening to live music…hanging out. Mondays was movie night. They have a very large screen movie theatre size! The owners take turns watching the bar and talking to the patrons. Each one of them made me feel at home. Nick, Liz and Kym. All I can say that there was an energy there that made me happy inside. Thank you Pinhook.