A Justified Distraction

i know lately it seems as if though i have been feeling a bit negative in my rants. maybe i am just trying to let the stuff go because i really do not like letting this stuff out to my loved ones. so instead i let it out here where it doesnt bother anyone. i would hope that the few three or four people that read my blog can learn from i am going through creatively. we all have personal problems that get in the way sometimes...or for better words become a distraction. none of the reasons that can justify to stop creating. a commitment to doing something we love or to use our gift to heal our souls by cleansing. cleansing through creating is is very therapeutic. letting go our fears and giving the world art is very rewarding. art gives life to creativity and inspiration. we assume the role of motivator and role model. we give life to thought and instigate emotion and feeling people might have not felt in many years. through a painting we can help people heal. we can give life to someones soul that has appeared to have died. art takes on a life of its own once created. it transforms. i can go on in so many directions as to how art is life giving. so much so that if this is so and we are so gifted with this task as artists. there is no excuse to stop.

i am too sad to paint...paint your sadness!
i am too depressed.....heal and let your soul speak!
i am too busy....slow down and live before you have a heart attack and create!
i dont know what to paint.....scribble some lines and play connect the dot with the paint and paint an abstract!
we all have distractions and also created excuses at one time or another....the only justified distraction is death or being crippled from head to toe or in a coma.....

im still here. i am still giving it my all. we all struggle at times to keep our passion for creating. we want to create all the time. sometimes our lives take priority over our passion. that thing that we love to do for ourselves. that interest we have that gives us hope to be ourselves. most of us are in a job or situation that does not match what our dreams were as children. we dreamed of being something larger than life. or at least we dreamed of doing something in our lives that made us happy everyday. we might be have accepted our current situation and find happiness in it.....but we all had dreams. my dream was to be an artist.

i spent a lifetime of visiting that dream here and there. just as quickly as i dreamed i had to forget about it because of my fears. recently i tackled my fears and embarked on my journey as an artist. it has been a life changing event for sure. my life is completely different right now than it was a year ago. a year ago i could only laugh at the idea that i would be referred to as danny the artist. it is hard work. it is not easy. it takes sacrifice and commitment. i almost gave it up a few days ago....because of those fear coming back. self doubt. but because i have immersed myself around people that are like minded artists who are so positive and are committed to being artists for the love of it and no other reason.

my journey has taken me through so many changes in my persona. it has forced me to re evaluate who i am and how i look at life. an artist at any level cannot have clutter in their minds. we have to be clear of what we want to create and have a purpose to why we create. in order to create passionately we have to be honest with ourselves. look in the mirror and create! in the end....i cannot stop creating this time. i will work it out. i will create for the sake of creating but i will not give up. i love all of you that support me.

Artistic Depression

Do you get depressed sometimes because you cannot seem to create anything? Does your emotion of the day and feeling rest on whether or not you can get something out of your head to manifest into a painting or piece of work? I seem to slip into a funk really fast when I cannot create my work. Lately I have not been happy with my results of what I create. It seems to snowball from there. The days go by really fast. I do not create anything from which I thought of. I look at images for inspiration and use reference as my subject rather than create something from my soul. I feel fake and do not feel worthy of people looking at my art because of the fear that they will see right through me.

I am Stuck!

I wish I had been given the instruction booklet from God on how to be an artist. I am stuck. I started out of the gate strong and now I am stuck. I know it is temporary as I search my soul for some inspiration...but .....Painting for the sake of painting is so hard. Creating something very deep takes a very special energy. That passion has to be present when we create. We cannot just turn that shit on like a light switch. It has to be overwhelming. Like falling in love. We cannot just settle for someone we feel we can get along with for the rest of our lives. We have to be head over heels for that person. What we create has to feel natural. It has to flow. It might be hard work....but it flows. It might have its challenges....but it is a very passionate grind we enjoy. Like exercise....we know it hurts but the results are amazing!