Lately I have been feeling in control of my life like never before. I know the source of all my good and challenging experiences. I can see where certain directions my life takes had its beginnings, Where I could have had a different thought process. Every day I am thankful for the experiences and the people I meet and are a part of my life. This is a wonderful journey that is going very fast. Now that I know what I know about life I often wonder what it would have been like to have this knowledge as a young man. How different my journey could have been. When I start to think of that alternate route I would have taken then I am reminded of my beautiful children and the wonderful people I have encountered along the way and the amazing friendships.
I often think of my life as a canvas waiting to have the imagery put on it. What vibrant colors I will choose. What textures I can conjure up and the arrangement of color and subject. There are so many variables to consider when painting a masterpiece. Who will see it? Who will buy it? What will everyone think of it? Do I care what people think? I should not as long as I enjoy it. Life is that way. Sometimes we make decisions based on what we worry about what others will think. Sometimes we arrange our lives a certain way where it does not please us but it will serve another’s purpose. We make ourselves available for others. We sacrifice our happiness for others comfort.
When it comes to our children we always make sacrifices. What I did not realize is that I could have played both sides of the token. I could have been providing for them working the same hours and yet working somewhere I love rather did not like just to make ends meet. Make sense? And if you come right down to the basics it is not about what you are doing it is how you perceive your life experiences that gauge your happiness. We need to be happy regardless. We need to love our lives in any and all situations. We need to feel and see the joy. Creating our life is a lost art only a few have the ability to perform.